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When I really want something – I typically get it. I don’t tend to lose, especially when I really put my mind to it. My forte is (seriously) gathering resources and information to make the best possible decisions at hand to make sure that I will get what I want / need. I also don’t give up easily, there is no point of retreat – or, there is one it is just typically never in sight.

This works out really well in the business world, and in my personal life. I have met and exceeded financial and career goals that I have set for myself and have generally been very successful.

There is one glaring, obvious problem. Recently – I lost, bigtime. Something that I worked very hard at. Because of my tenacious personality I am having a very, very, VERY difficult time letting go with this thing that I lost. Such a hard time, in fact that it effects nearly every other aspect in my life in such a way that I may fail at those things too. I have gone from excellent in most areas to mediocre in all.

I am fearful of getting invested in anything, ever again to prevent this rash of mediocrities. However, without this passion will that make me par with everything to begin with? Is my total and utter investment in particular tasks the thing that makes me good in the first place? How do I protect myself from this sort of epic failure again?

Either way, I lose. Logically, the best thing to do is to cut off the fat (so to speak) and to move on and be awesome in as many things as is humanly possible. I wish it were that easy.